0 Blogging About Autism: October 2019

Tuesday, 22 October 2019

Autism Meltdowns in Adults

This blog post is aimed at helping people who do not have autism to understand what autism meltdowns feel like from the perspective of an autistic person.

When children with autism have meltdowns many people just assume they are spoilt or naughty. This is far from the truth and it is not fair to judge them or their parents based on behaviours that are a direct consequence of living with a disability.  There are so many misconceptions around autism and meltdowns it is discouraging to live in a world that can often show so little understanding.

Monday, 21 October 2019

Inflexible Thoughts and Social Anxiety

Going Out Alone

Today is one of the rare times that I have gone out without my fiance by my side. I was going to meet my future mother in law to go and pick up my wedding dress and the dresses for my bridesmaids for alterations. I recall much anxiety before leaving and that same level of anxiety is present every single day of my life.

Tuesday, 15 October 2019

Why Early Autism Diagnosis is Essential

Looking back on my traumatic past is hard and this page on my blog only focuses on one part of the many traumas I have faced. It is easier to write this if I do it from a detached state and so that is why it is written from a third person angle. 

She looks at the little red-headed girl in the photo that her granda kept up until the day that he died. She keeps it to try and piece back together pieces of herself that have been shattered by a world that has always wanted to change her. In that picture, she has wavy hair and big expressive bluish/green eyes. At that point in her life, she had no self-esteem and she was struggling with 8 or 9 different disabilities that she didn't even know she had. When she walked into school it felt like she was walking into a battlefield. Each morning she awoke with that same dread and wonder as to what was in store for her today. Stares, glares, name-calling or something else perhaps? Maybe it would just be the soul-destroying feeling of going about her days not being able to play with other children or even relate to them. She wanted so badly to join in and would stare as others happily played with dolls and had conversations with each other.

Friday, 11 October 2019

Do Autistic People Get Suicidal Thoughts?

I Often Feel Like I Don’t Want to Be Here
I have chosen to answer this because I am moved to by the number of times I find myself saying “I don’t want to be here.” I am not suicidal writing this but I am very sad and the sadness never seems to lessen or go away for long. I am not sad about my life with my fiance because I love him to bits and I am so lucky to have found someone who truly understands me. His family are also in that special and very sparsely populated group of people who take the time to understand someone like me who has a different brain. I will discuss why I often feel this way and I hope that it answers this question in a way that might make people think about how they treat others. I write in hopes of bringing about positive change for others and myself.

Wednesday, 9 October 2019

Autism, Witches, Banshees, Friendlessness and Other Spooky Things

Why I Can Relate to Witches  

Since it is October and because I love Halloween, I have decided to write a Halloween themed article and witches are my chosen topic. I have always wanted to visit Salem in America so it is on my bucket list.  I often feel quite like I can relate to witches and I have read a lot about them and how they suffered years before now. I wonder if they actually were practising witchcraft or if they were just the unfortunate people who could not quite fit into society and were punished for that.

The Monster of Rumination

The Monster of Rumination  

Going with a Halloween theme for October I will talk about the monster that is rumination.

Wednesday, 2 October 2019

Multi Tasking, Sequencing, Transitioning and Other things

Multi-Tasking , Transitioning, Sequencing  and Other Things

Amongst the many weird and annoying ways autism digs its claws into my life is that my brain seems unable to mult-task very well or sometimes even at all. I find this rather infuriating and want to discuss the many ways in which it happens in further detail. I am a one thing at a time kind of person in many parts of my life but this is due to necessity. I have to choose one or the other. Even in regards to the things I really wish I didn’t have to choose between because my disability limits me. Autism effects some people differently than others but my variation of the bag of symptoms that are directly caused by it is pretty disabling. Each little thing I do takes more focus than it should and it is mentally exhausting to go through life like this.